busy week

Two days ago me and hubby was in my childhood local newspaper Norra Västerbotten and today we are in the largest national paper Aftonbladet. On Wednesday we will appear on national TV in an afternoon show called Go’kväll on SVT 1. Both the paper of today and the TV-show have an estimated number of readers/viewers of about 7-10% of the population here in Sweden.

The TV-show will most certainly get online but the articles are as far as I know not online.

So in a week, statistically every Swede will know at least a couple of persons that knows my story. But that is not the huge thing. The huge deal for me is that local paper. A small little paper with a circulation of less than 40k.

When I grew up I was deeply closeted and as soon as I finished the 9th grade and turned 16 I moved away to my sister who lived in the city I live in now. I didn’t keep in touch with anyone. I sort of disappeared. To be on the cover and get a spread in the paper that most of the people I grew up with reads is a big deal.

I know many transgendered people who move away from thier home as soon as they can afford it and never comes back. It is not only hard emotionally to transition around people you grow up with, it can be a very dangerous thing to. Even if most people can accept transgendered it is easier for people to understand when it is a stranger and not someone you already had a clear image of how they are.

For me, doing this article is coming out at home. When I go back people will get who I am. Last time I was up there I met several people who I really know that looked at me and only saw a stranger. I do no look at all as the person I grew up in.

When I come out as trans to people I have gotten to know the last couple of years they still see me and just add another background story. When I come out to person that only knew me as her it is a different story. Then they have to take someone that looks and sounds like a stranger and merge together with someone else. And it was always easier just to be the stranger. Now I’m not. And it feels pretty good.

It feels like the final piece in a bit extracted childhood puzzle.

Now I just have a thousand other parts of my life to be puzzled about. Right now I’m liking the pieces I have to play with. Things goes rather well at work. If anyone wants an audio bible go to voxbiblia.com and listen for free or buy something and I will be the one sending it to you. Even if it really doesn’t do any monetary difference for me my it does for my boss and since he might be the most supportive boss imaginable I want the most of success for him.